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Sunday, May 30, 2010

Hiking at 6 am






4am. My alarm clock buzzed loudly, and my hand came down on the snooze button hard. I rolled back over next to my dachshund, Aubey, (named after the Auburn Tigers) and pulled the covers over my head. I listened. My sister wasn't awake yet. A few more minutes of sleep.

My alarm buzzed loudly again. 4:20 am. I could hear my sister now, walking through the hallway. My door squeaked open and she groggily said, "Time to get ready." I touched my feet to the cold, wooden floor and rubbed my eyes. "Okay," I said, leaving Aubey under the comforter.

The house was dark. Mom and dad were still sleeping as we pulled on our clothes and packed our new Army bags with supplies. Hailey packed her bag with band aids, gauze and tape. "I'm going to be the medic," she said. I nodded and bit down on the blueberry pop tart I was holding.

It was 5am when we got into my car. We threw our bags in the back seat, and I drove down our gravel driveway and onto the twisting ridge. Hailey took my Tom Petty CD from its case and put it in the player. Breakdown. We sang along as we drove through our ghost-like town, passing three cars on the way to the state park. The wind was cool as it passed through the windows, rustling our hair.

It was foggy and crowd-less when we got to the park. I drove into a gravel parking lot and the car door grunted open. We put on our bags and sprayed ourselves down with bug spray. The sunblock we had packed wasn't needed. The sign at the start of the trail said 3 miles and we took off excited about our morning hike.

During the first five minutes of our hike, both of us started scratching the top part of our legs. We talked through what could have happened to make us itch that bad and we decided that it couldn't have been poison ivy or oak, an allergic reaction to the bug spray or bug bites. We continued down the winding trail, that followed the river, trying desperately not to scratch our red legs. To keep our minds off of the itch we started singing camp songs and random, half made up songs like, " A hiking we will go. A hiking we will go. Hi ho the derry-o a hiking we will go." When we reached the end of the trail and had sang through a dozen or so camp songs, our legs stopped itching. It was miraculous.

The gorge was next. At 7am we started our hike down the hill to the water. Boulders the size of cars were piled up next to the river and we immediately began climbing up and over them, making our way to the water. As we climbed, I found a small pool of muddy water, reached in, and cupped a tad-pole in my hand. It squirmed around, and I released it back into its small home.

"Let's try to cross," I said. Hailey agreed and we looked for a safe path. When we found a path of small boulders in the river, we took off our shoes, tied them to our bags and tried to get to the other side. The water was frigid when I dipped my foot in and touched the nearest slimy rock. When I felt steady, I slowly moved to the next one, teeth clenched. My sister was behind me, and I stopped to help her. "Grab my hand," I told her. She shook her head. The current was swift and the rocks were slippery. The water was freezing and if either of us were to fall in we would be washed downstream. "I can't do it," she said, watching the water. I reached my hand out to her. "Yes, you can." Hailey got her courage up and reached for the green rock, clinging to it. I tried to continue forward but the current was strong, the water was deep and the gap was long. We turned back and as Hailey started for the rock before her, her bag fell into the water. "No!" she yelled, quickly grabbing it back up. She threw it to the dry rocks, and I followed. When we were both dry, we decided that we wouldn't try it again.

We backtracked toward the trail that would lead us back to the top of the hill until we saw four water falls in the distance. "Look!" I said, pointing at the falls. We climbed over the rocks, the morning sun brushing lightly against our skin. When we reached our destination it looked just like I would envision a paradise. The falls poured over the water carved rocks and into the cold river below. We made our way behind the fall and stood, looking out at the river and the forest beyond it. When we had our fill, we trekked back up the side of the hill and climbed inside my little car. I turned the key and Tom Petty's voice filled the car again. Runnin' down a dream. And we sang along as I drove the winding road back to the town that was just waking from their slumbers.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Speaking of Peace, Love and Rock and Roll...

Tom Petty. Bob Dylan. Stevie Nicks. Led Zeppelin. Creedance Clearwater Revival.

These are only a few of my favorite Rockers. They make me happy. Why am I writing about this, you ask? I have no idea. I just thought it would be fun. Not that anyone cares, but I'm going to see Tom Petty and ZZ Top in concert. I'm super stoked! It's not until August, but I'm already freaking out. It's going to be awesome!

Alright enough of that. So, right now I'm supposed to be looking for a job. But it's just so frustrating! I'll be looking up jobs and then start looking up writing and photography jobs and THEN I start wishing that I could be a photographer for National Geographic. Ahhh. Now that would be awesome! Then I think "I have no idea how to get into something like that," and I begin clicking the Back button on my computer until I'm back to where I was before, "Secretary position available." I mean, how exciting is that?

Speaking of work. I'm not loving my retail job. It's boring. Not to mention all the yelling for no reason thing. GAH! I can't wait to quit.

I feel like right now my life is so boring! Not exciting at all. One day when my life starts to get exciting, I hope I don't decide that my life is still boring, if that makes sense....

Anyway, just a small complaint and a few other things.

I'm off to play Trouble with my family.

See ya friends.

See ya void.

Erin.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Dreams and Sailboats

I haven't written anything in ages. Mainly because I was sick and mainly because I forgot. So, now I will write some random thoughts down from the past and now. I'll try and keep things short.

The end of 2008 and most of 2009 was not a good year for me. I got sick and couldn't really function properly. (As in, couldn't walk around, or hang out or keep food down.)

It was a really lonely time as well. College had ended and me and my two besties (Holly and Karye. Shoutout!) weren't living together anymore. Most of my other college friends were in other states. Yeah, facebook is great and all, but I need more than that.

Anyway, I was really just kind of the walking dead in every aspect in my life. Since I was sick, I couldn't go to church and that was the worst thing I've ever been through. A year of not going to church? Really? All of a sudden I was rolling down the mountain and landed in the valley (and then started sinking in the quicksand that was down there) When I got out of the hospital and had found out what was wrong with me I was really excited because hey! I get to do all these things that I couldn't do before. And I did to a certain extent. Every Saturday night I would say to myself, "Erin, you're going to church tomorrow," but when Sunday came around, I would be sleeping in with the rest of my folks. We tried a few places out but didn't stay for long. It wasn't until two Sunday's ago, that I made myself get up and find a church.

So now I've gone to church 2 Sunday's in a row! How wonderful! I know it sounds really lame...2 Sunday's woop de doo. But I'm excited because I know I will be going next Sunday too. No excuses, no fuss no muss. I'm grabbing the nearest branch that I can see from my sandpit, and pulling myself out of that mess. I'm starting back up that mountain.

So really I just want to say that Erin is back Ladies and Gentlemen. She was gone for a while but now she's here again. Ready to Rumble. Dreaming again. Awakening the passions that had been lost to her in 2008 and 2009. I'm on that road again, with my passions and dreams in hand and ready to face the world. I'm just excited.

I also have this burning desire to buy a sailboat. I think buying one and living on it would just be the most awesome and coolest thing ever. Living simply. Getting rid of all the junk in my life. (Literally) Being el cap-i-tain. Living on the water. Sailing wherever the wind would take me. Of course, I need to take sailing lessons first. I'm gonna save up and try to get that done this summer.

"No, I'll stand my ground, won't be turned around
And I'll keep this world from draggin me down
gonna stand my ground. And I won't back down
."

Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

Out goes my post, into the void.

There you go.

Erin.