Nostalgia and God

I found this post in my Drafts Folder and thought I would throw it up here. I had forgotten about all of this. It's amazing how you can sometimes forget about the valley you had gone through when you are climbing to the top of the mountain again. I just know that God takes care of everything. Even though we don't think so at the time.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
-Romans 8:28

11/4/10
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So here I am again. I'm sitting in this old, black computer chair once more, writing about my life and sending it into the vast, world wide web for random people to read. There are so many emotions and thoughts bouncing around in the confines of my head that I just can't process it all. I feel that if I don't get this all out then I will explode! Where do I even begin?

About a month ago, I went to visit my two best friends in the whole world. On the way there, I found myself with windows down, cool wind blowing through my hair and music from The Fray relaxing me. That alone brought on a rush of Nostalgia. The Fray: College. Cool air of Autumn: College. Classes. Friends. Windows down: College. Friends. Community. Lots of et cetera's. I usually love it when I get these bursts of Nostalgia but, for some reason, I couldn't help but feel sad. I miss college: Classes and Chapel. I miss friends: I took for granted that I got to see them every day. I miss a lot of things.

My disease is troubling me. I have found solace in a friend who has a similar (almost exact) condition. When I need help figuring out why I feel sick for no reason, he helps. When I wake up I usually have dreadful nausea, until I take my medicine. Then I usually feel okay. If not, there's always the Pepto. It can definitely be frustrating when trying to find a job or plan a mission trip. If I feel the slightest bit sick, the stress begins. Then I have to calm myself down, because the stress makes me sick.

But through all of this, I haven't forgotten God. Through the sadness and joy; Through the heartaches and love, I have grown closer to God. Even with hardly any money and me living with my parents, I have found that God provides. Even when I'm so sick, and I just feel like crying in a corner, I praise God anyway. This is my life. Whether I'm sick or feeling well. Whether I'm in a foreign land or in Tennessee, God is in control.
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Wow, back to the present (4/13/2011) now. I haven't been sick in months (sick as in no more everyday nausea. I still have my disease.) I used to dread mornings and now I don't! I used to think that I wouldn't make it to the mission field. I am in the process now of getting to the mission field. My loans are getting paid off little by little. Life is good. Life is awesome! Life is swell!

See ya in the funny papers!

Erin.